As of yesterday, we’ve been together 6 months. The best months ever, actually. But it feels like we’ve been together much longer than that. I’ve known you all my life. And a year ago, as of January, we began talking. You told me you like me in April. Since April of last year, I’ve liked you. A lot. I think I might have even loved you by the summer. But we were still just friends. And I was dying inside, waiting for you to say that we should be something more. Like the coward I am. But we promised each other we’d be together one day. No matter what or who got in our way. You would say, “You will be mine!” and I’d blush like an idiot. Thinking, ‘he’ll never do it’. Then school started up again and you’d walk me to class. And leave your friends behind to sit with me and my friends at lunch (thankyou). Still just friends. Then you asked me to Homecoming and I said yes. A little too fast maybe. I bought a red dress and you bought a tie. My favorite tie. We went together, with our friends. I was too scared to dance with you. And you were too scared to dance with me. So we both danced badly and made fools of ourselves. I was so nervous. Just touching your hand scared me. Then when THE most obnoxious song came on (guess which one), you said “You’re going to remember this song forever.” I asked why and right when I looked up, you kissed me. I died and went to heaven. It was a feeling like no other. & I’m sorry if my lips failed to move, I was in shock. Haha.. then you did it again. And again. With a smile of course. & You held my hand the rest of the night. It was a fairytale. But we were still friends, strangely. Until the end of the month, when you finally got the courage to ask me to be your ‘lady friend’. I was beyond happy. Then in November, you took me to the state fair. We rode every ride and I made you conquer your fear of the ferris wheel. Then sometime before midnight you told me you loved me on the sky ride and I said it, too. Since then, I’ve been on the moon. You make me the happiest I have ever been. And I mean that with all my heart. I’ve never felt so alive. Thanks to you. I don’t even know how to thank you for being so amazing. I’m at a loss for words. & I know this is really long and I don’t care who else reads this, because I know you’re secretly looking at my blog right now. ;P I love you. I can’t say it enough. I love you, a ton. :)
I did something brave last night.
I snuck my boyfriend into my house for a sleepover. And I’m so happy that I did. We watched movies and ate and snuggled and just talked about nothing and everything for hours. Then we got busy. ;) Haha.. then we just laid there together and talked for a while longer until we fell asleep. & That wasn’t even the best part. In the middle of the night, I rolled over onto my side and I felt him do it, too. Then he wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me into him. I grabbed his hand and held onto it. No one said anything, we just slept. It was so natural. It was beautiful. I never felt so loved. I literally felt butterflies while I was sleeping. It was magical.
I felt love.
How I love that boy.